What is decency??

I followed a link from Love is Sweeter Than Reason today to a site called Beautiful Agony. I thought I was going to a blog but instead I ended up at a site that is a catalogue of videos of the facial expressions and sounds of real people having orgasms. There is an assortment of men and women, though there are more women. They have a free sample on each page so i checked out a few minutes of a few of them.

The wierd thing is that they are so "real" (cuz they are) that I doubt that a movie could get an R rating with a full 5 minutes of this in it, but yet there is really nothing indecent about it. We all know that these people are masturbating or being pleasured by another, that they are probably nude, and neat things are surely happening off-screen, but the frame shot captures none of that. All you get is the facial expressions and the vocals of the person getting off.

It is really quite intimate and sexually charged, but I don't think this is pornography. Odd part is that I felt a little guilty for looking at it, but I am not sure why. I guess this is one of those things that you generally don't see until you are intimate with a person and so to just download it off the web takes it out of context and makes it seem awkward. Really it should be beautiful, but I feel a little dirty.